Friday, March 9, 2018

CONFRONTATION WITH DECISIONS

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

by AliahMazli

"When confronted with a difficult decision, we can be like deer in headlights: dazed and unable to choose a direction"

-Reader's Digest

Decisions, thoughts and challenges.

These three siblings are the fundamental of life that we encounter in our every day life. To withstand the challenges faced, to govern our thoughts in an orderly and wise manner in order to make the most sane decisions of everything.

From the smallest to the biggest things, we have to make decisions. But how do we really know that it's the wise decision that we have decided to do?

Up until today, I still wonder and doubt some of my decisions, thinking am I going to the right decision in life? Just a ponder you know. I believe Allah is The Best of Planners and He has planned the best story line for each and everyone of us. It's just that sometimes we did the silliest things in life which make us regrets-that-you-can-never-forget-and-hoping-not-to-do-it. But that is life tho. We did, we learned and we move forward not repeating the same mistakes over again.

For example, deep down inside, I know I am hardworking and smart. But I did not give my best during my school years which made me regrets a bunch! But from there I realized my passion or my main thing that I can do and like in this life.

I love language, I love music, I am a person with a deep sentimental values over everything that I see, hear, feel, easy to easy--everything that surrounds me.

I get attached too easily. I get emotionally affected easily. Imagine if I were to become a doctor, I don't think I'll be sane in another 3 months.

But writing, makes me feel me. I'm free to express myself, my opinions, my ideas and somehow I love how writing can touch a person's heart--even to cold ones.

Have I made a mistake over decisions that I chose?

Yes. I do regret up until today and there were those which I'm glad I did the mistake.

Why? Because one of them was the reason why I started to be much closer to my Creator, My Love--Allah.

To be honest, I am still struggling with my thoughts, my challenges and the decisions that I have to make every single day. Above all that, I strongly feeling assured that I have Allah with me all the time to guide me in making the best out of my life. Tipu kalau kata tak nervous. Nervous kot! Cabaran yang Allah nak bagi bukan sebarang calang. Kata nak dekat dengan Allah, kata nak syurga Allah--tak kental la kalau cabaran tu ciput ye tak?

Allah Allah moga dikuatkan hati, diberi ketabahan.

I hope all of you feel the same way too. To always be determined and be stronger each and every day. InshaaAllah, see you in the next post!