ARE YOU THERE? I AM STILL HERE

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

by AliahMazli

Assalamualaikum Marwan.

I found myself crying over memories of you.

I used to tell all my stories and worries to you. Till one time I stopped doing that thinking I can survive on my own but I was wrong. I dont get the chance to spend our time together talking non stop about our worries, dreams, new things that we learned, hopes and the list never stops. Right Marwan?

I realized I tend to keep lots of things to myself and I found it hard to let it out because I hardly have the strength to tell all without crying. Remember whenever we talk, I'll cry at the end of the line?

No one knows how big your impact in my life was. BIG enough till I always feels the pain in the chest for not being able to let everything out. Suffocated enough that I always cry thinking of how much I miss you.

Never one day I miss of sending my gift to you; Al Fatihah Marwan. Never I miss a day. I hope you get all my gifts everyday and you will be happy and loved there Marwan. I really do.

Allahurabbi, Allahu Ya Rahman, I miss this servant of yours dearly. Dearly I miss...

Muhammad Marwan bin Mazlan | 1990-2014

Al - Fatihah

Sunday, December 21, 2014

#3 - MARWAN

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

by AliahMazli
"Lia, jangan pernah fikir tak ada orang sayangkan kau. Semua orang sayang kau. Allah ada kan. Keluarga ada kan. Keluarga kita besar kot. Close lagi. Semua care pasal kau. Aku pun care pasal kau. Aku sayang kau lia. Ingat tu.

Kawan-kawan apa lah sangat kalau takat buat langsi dengan kau. Kawan datang. Kawan pergi. InshaAllah, ada lah nanti kawan-kawan yang memang kawan dengan kau sebab engkau. Okay? Senyum. Nanti malam aku hantar lagu aku main gitar dekat kau. On YM!".

*conversation around year 2004/2005

There are times where I am facing with my teenage-rebellious-period-where-backstabbing-is-spreading-wildly. School times, teenage age, hmm what else can be related with me finding myself and I am at the stage of knowing people and choosing the right friends to be with.

This man, this young man here never fails to keep me stronger and believe that whatever happens when there is no one who wants to be friends with me, I have my family to turn to besides Allah. I have him; my dearest closest cousin to talk to.

Mat, I dream of you mat. I miss you so much.

Muhammad Marwan bin Mazlan
1990-2014
Al-Fatihah.

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

#2 - MARWAN

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

by AliahMazli
"Lia, kau ada duit tak? Kau jangan tipu aku. Kau tu senyap je entah-entah kau berlapar. Meh aku bank-in duit sikit. Kau makan. Tau?"

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"Tak apa mat. Ayah baru bagi duit ni. Lega sikit rasa. Minggu lepas je berlapar. Hehe. Thanks mat. Simpan duit kau tu. Tau?".

The most caring. The most warm-hearted person who never wants to see his family/friends in trouble or in a situation where he cannot bear to watch. He will do anything and help with his utmost effort to make sure that everyone is in good condition. He always, and always will give his best.

I miss you mat. I miss you so much.

Muhammad Marwan bin Mazlan
1990-2014
Al-Fatihah.

#1 - MARWAN

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

by AliahMazli
"Lia, kau okay tak? Jangan sedih-sedih lagi. Kalau kau sedih, susah hati aku. Aku ada. Meh kita borak. Nak?".

Those words that I will never get to hear. Ever again.

It has been 3 days since you're gone meeting your Rabb.

Muhammad Marwan bin Mazlan
1990-2014
Al-Fatihah.