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Sunday, March 26, 2017
MARRIAGE STORY #3 (SAH! AKAD NIKAH PHASE)
بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful
Time goes on like a sand clock which pass by in a blink of an eye. I cant even recall when was the last time I checked on the date of my marriage. It's nearing. I'm in my final semester and I freaked out. I did not know that it will be this hectic. To be honest, my parents organized everything from A to Z. Yes, A to Z. I did only 5% of the preparation. Mainly for the invitation card, the list of guests, fitting over and over again, helping with the hantaran and etc. But above all, my parents who worked their sweats off to make this possible. Just, for me. The stubborn daughter.
Bila diingatkan balik, memang saya rasa bersalah. Sebab saya punya contribution dalam financial part memang kosong. Zero I tell you. Iyalah, nak kahwin waktu tengah belajar. Tahun akhir pula tu. Apa kerja gila. Mana nak cekau duit banyak tu. Perbelanjaan pula menelan lebih kurang RM20 ribu. Gila kan? Saya rasa gila. Ikutkan hati, mahu buat simple sahaja tapi bila diingat, dengan tetamu lagi, dengan keluarga yang super besar lagi, the expenses are big. Tambah pula saya punya seorang Umi yang sangat detail orangnya dan mahu YANG TERBAIK buat anaknya. Berhabis duit dan mahu yang tercantik buat anaknya. Sebak bila diingat balik. Banyak budi dan jasa tak terbalas. Aduh, rasa macam anak derhaka pula bila flashback balik ni.
Satu perkara yang buat saya rasa sedikit tenang bila tunang saya waktu itu sudah bekerja. Jadinya Umi Ayah rasa lega sikit lah nak lepas anak dara dia dekat lelaki entah siapa siapa lah.
Let me remind you again, waktu ini saya di semester 5, meniti waktu untuk peperiksaan akhir. Berbaki beberapa minggu lagi nak bernikah, tambah pula dengan nak study, tambah lagi dengan nak siapkan assignments yang masih berderet nak kena submit. Argh! Those moments! Still, saya masih teruskan urusan harian saya macam biasa. Cuma pergantungan pada Allah tu melebih lebih melimpah habis dah saya rasa. Bermacam rasa yang bermain dalam hati dan fikiran. Rasa takut, rasa tak yakin, rasa "am I doing the right thing? Can I just end this thing?".
Okay to cut it short, when the date is getting nearer, I can say I RARELY texted my fiance, I just dont. I just say let's meet on the date and pray for the best. If he has anything to say or ask, just ask his mother to call my mother. I took a leave (students don't have a leave but this one is permission-granted kind of thing because of a valid reason, so I just have to write a letter and submit my assignment on time). I went back to Kuantan 2 days before my wedding day. With my beloved Farhany, we went back and had our own sweet time before the big day. It filled with tears, hugs and hopes.
I slept early that night on 24th October 2014. I remembered I put on a face mask and sleep. Tho I can't really have a good deep sleep (hey I'm getting married!) but, I managed to force myself to sleep and I eventually did. I woke up for fajr prayer and I get ready for the day.
Finally, the day comes. My cousin painted my face early in the morning as the ceremony starts at 9:00 a.m. Antara memori yang paling meremangkan roma saya adalah bila my dear Farhany sat beside me and she read "Doa Rabitah". If you read the translation of the du'a, you will cry. It was beautiful and it really hit me hard when she says the prayers while I'm getting my make-up done. She said she cried. Saya? Bergenang airmata, tapi kena tahan habis sebab tengah make-up (Oh whyyy).
Fast forward to the ceremony.
The living room was filled with packed of families and friends near and far. I just cant breath and my eyes were swaying here and there thinking what am I doing here and whats happening at that moment. I see him. I see my father sitting in front of him. I told myself, this is it. This is the moment.
Sebenarnya perkara yang saya kesali adalah, bila saya sedar kurangnya masa saya dengan Umi Ayah saya. Seolah macam, I know they are there tapi saya rasa seolah tak habis lagi waktu yang saya nak bersama dengan mereka. Dalam sekelip mata saya dah nak diijab kabul and I will spend my life with the man later on. Saya rasa terkilan waktu saya lihat Ayah saya. I can see his face, looks so deep in thought which only God knows what.
Akad nikah sah setelah lafaz yang kedua. Kenapa? Bukan sebab pengantin lelaki. Tetapi sebab Ayah saya. Pada lafaz pertama, Ayah tak terluah lafaz yang sepatutnya. Seolah setiap bait perkataan yang perlu dilafaz tersekat di kerongkong Ayah. Tersekat-sekat suaranya. Sebak. Ayah menahan sebak dan airmata. Allahu. Waktu itu saya sedar betapa beratnya Ayah untuk melepaskan saya. Betapa banyaknya rasa dan perkataan dalam hati beliau yang mungkin tak sempat beliau luahkan pada saya, biasalah Mak Ayah kita ni bukan tak kisah, tapi tak reti nak meluah lagi lagi pada anak.
Tok kadi tenangkan Ayah waktu ini. Lafaz kedua baru akhirnya Sah! Alhamdulillah.
Saya menangis ke? Tak, saya tak menangis. Saya bergenang airmata masa lafaz pertama batal because of Ayah. Yang menangis beria tu, suami saya (ceh dah sah haruslah tukar panggilan kepada suami), teresak esak beliau menangis. Terbeban kot rasanya nak jaga saya yang keras kepala degil ini.
Everything felt so surreal. I cant believe myself. The moment he came to read du'a while putting his hand on my head made me realize that I'm not dreaming. I'm now a wife. A big responsibility is waiting ahead of me now. The list is endless.
Saya rasa momen yang buat saya sane semula bila waktu nak bersalam. Kekoknya Allah sahaja yang tahu. Bayangkan, holding a hand of a man yang I don't really know at that time memang rasa yang gila! But the moment I held his hand and kissed it, the feeling was so pure. Rasa macam Allah tengok, Allah redha. You know, that kind of feeling bila kita buat benda yang Allah suka instead of murka. That's the most priceless I think. Aside of me crying (like finally) when I hugged and kissed Umi Ayah, my in-laws, siblings and the list goes on and on. Habis make-up!
I can't thanked my parents enough for making it possible. They worked hard, they stressed out, the cash were stacked out from their account, and many more. O Allah bestow them all the happiness in the world and hereafter. Showers them with wealth and all the good things. I was grateful to all guests who came on that day. I thank Allah S.W.T for making it happened. It was a sunny bright day.
And so, my new journey begins. The reality of life.
25 October 2014. You will always be remembered.
Allah S.W.T is the reason this journey started.
And I hope it ends for the sake of Allah and to be gathered again in his Jannah.
Friday, September 7, 2012
SYAWAL 2012
بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful
It's been a while too since I last updated my dear diary here. Too many time spent for myself I can say.
"Being alone for a while and the taste of silence is beyond everything that is wonderful in this world. Being alone with Allah is the best time ever. Allah is amazing"
-Aliah Athirah Mazli, September 2012-
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| 3 families only out of 8 family di pagi Raya. Still, the barakah was strongly presence. |
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| These women up here are all amazing. |
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| Indah I can say :') |
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| Daughters of Toknyang Ahmad. Sisters :) Tok with her beloved sister, Tokteh. |
Last but not least, khatam al-Quran di Kampung Pulau Rusa usually on the 2nd day of Syawal.
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| Head of the family, Tokki Othman :) |
Majlis khatam al-Quran is mainly on after Subuh prayer. This is what Tokki said, "Kuliah Dhuha lah kiranya ni". Hihi. His sons, daughters, son in-laws, daughter in-laws, grandsons and granddaughters were all gathered together to listen to his kuliyyah.
He is a great man with great responsibility of uniting us the family and making the bond between each other growing stronger inshaAllah not just here in dunya but also in Jannah. If God wills.
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| Tok and Tokki <3 |
Everytime I set my eyes on them, I believe love can last forever dunia akhirat if the love is based on wanting to get Allah's redha solely. I remember Tokki once said this:
" It all started with just me and Tok (his wife), and now you can see how this family expand beautifully and gracefully with love, rahmah, barakah. Kalau Allah redha, inshaAllah good things will come eventually. Pokok pangkal, cinta itu hanya kerana Allah dan untuk mendapatkan redhaNya semata-mata ".
I can say, pinjaman terindah di dunia ini adalah mempunyai keluarga seindah mereka semua. I don't ask for any other things in this world. Seeing my big family is enough to gratefully thank Allah for all of HIS blessings. Subhanallah, this is just too beautiful.
" Ya Allah, syukur ku panjatkan kepadaMu atas pinjamanMu kepadaku di dunia yang serba serbi indah ini. Kau Yang Maha Indah. Aku bahagia. Bahagia adanya mereka disisi. Kau limpahkan lah rahmatMu dan kesihatan kepada mereka semua. InshaAllah. Aminn Ya Rabbal Alamin "
-Aliah Athirah Mazli, September 2012-
Nota kaki: Semua di dunia hanya lah pinjaman semata. Sedarkan diri tentang itu setiap hari setiap masa agar tidak timbul sedikit rasa riya', ujub, takbur dan yang sewaktu dengannya. Nauzubillah. Wallahua'alam.
Credit pictures to Mohd Saffuan Aroff a.k.a Wawan the cousin :) Thank you wawan!
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
CINTA ♥
بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful
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| Foto credit kepada Saffuan Aroff Mohd Saufi a.k.a wawan |
Sebelum lahirnya aku
Dia ada
Selepas aku disambut tiba
Dia ada
Membesarnya aku
Dia ada
Menangisnya aku
Dia ada
Mengadunya aku
Dia ada
Jatuh bangun aku
Dia ada
Dia tetap ada
Dia tetap ada
Tanpa ada rasa jelik
Melayan sabar anak cucu cicit
Dirimu tiada ganti
Dirimu disayangi sepenuh hati
Moga Yang Esa sentiasa berkatimu
Supaya terus memandu keluarga ini
Ke jalan Allah yang satu
Aku mahu dinikahi
Ada kamu disisi
Aku mahu menimang baby
Ada kamu disisi
Aku mahu anak anakku nanti
Kenali siapa lelaki hebat ini
Ditemani isteri yang setia disisi
Rezeki melimpah setiap hari
Aku mahu perkahwinan seperti ini
Hidup yang diredhai
Allahu Rabbi
Aku cinta lelaki ini
Aku syukur punya dia disisi
Tokki, alia sayang Tokki. Tok, peluk cium untuk Tok. Sayang Tok. ♥
Nukilan : Cucu perempuanmu yang ke-10. Aliah Athirah Mazli.
(13 Jun 2012 Rabu, 10:24 awal pagi)
Monday, June 11, 2012
USS SINGAPORE ♥
بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful
Amboi gaya macam lama. Sehari sahaja. Pergi awal pagi dan pulang pada malamnya. Indah rasa. Percutian sehari bersama keluarga besar ini.
Tempatnya hebat. Rasa macam berada di alam lain. Sakit sikit mata bila terpaksa melalui kelibat ramai yang ada di antaranya telanjang sahaja. Hm.
Konklusi percutian. Berbaloi tapi jika lebih sehari sikit mungkin lagi terasa berbaloinya. Hihi. Terima kasih Tuhan atas nikmat kebahagiaan.
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| Family besar. Naik bas angkut semua. |
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| Tiba :) |
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| Lihat Numa. Gadis comel paling kanan. Numa, kak alia rinduuuuu ! |
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| Handsome ayah and the sempoi Acik & Yechik |
Rasa seronok bukan? Kalau boleh aku mahu ke sana lagi. Banyak rides yang aku tak ternaik. Kerana apa? Kerana sifat takut yang melampaui batas. Lain kali mungkin. Ya, mungkin.
InsyaAllah, jumpa lagi !
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
MASA BERSAMA KELUARGA ADALAH YANG PALING INDAH ♥
بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful
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| One whole restaurant just for our family. This is only suku of our family. Belum half lagi. |
Bismillah. Pada hari ahad yang lepas 20 Mei 2012, telah diadakan makan makan bersama keluarga sempena meraikan kejayaan majlis perkahwinan Yayan dan Dena pada 1 Mei 2012 yang lalu. Semua yang terlibat membantu pada hari tersebut hadir. Terima kasih Baba Mohd Saufi dan Ayahngah Kamarul Bahrin for treating all of us that day. Syukur.
Sehari selepas hari konvokesyen berlalu, ada pula hari bersama keluarga. Apa lagi yang perlu saya minta. Rahmat Allah itu terlalu indah untuk saya ungkapkan. True to say, time with the family is the most expensive than any other things.
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| The food there was awesome. Sedap and sangat berbaloi kalau nak pergi. The cousins ♥ |
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| Makde, Umi dan Tokteh ♥ Ayah look sleepy. Tired maybe. Hihi. Mann, Y ayah look so handsome? |
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| Tokteh with her cicit. Kalau Tok tengok ni mesti Tok pun tak sabar nak ada cicit. InsyaAllah Tok. I'm sure Tok will be the most happiest person in the world kalau ada cicit nanti. Ameen. Moga Allah perkenankan. |
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| My awesome aunts and Tokteh ♥ From left : Makngah Ida, Umi, Makde, Acik, Makcu Yusa, Tokteh and sleeping cutie Amni :) |
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| Mereka awesome. Sekian ♥ Duduk diam tanpa cakap apa apa pun best dengan mereka ni. :D |
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| The newleyweds and kaklong |
Ya Allah, syukurku padaMu tidak dapat aku ungkapkan kerana banyaknya limpah rahmatMu terhadapku dan keluargaku. Aku bersyukur. Kau pinjamkan mereka kepadaku untuk aku merasai apa itu erti kebahagian bersama keluarga yang mawaddah. Semoga keluarga ini akan terus diberkati olehNya.
p/s: Tak ingat nama restoran tu. Dekat Ampang, Ruz Aladin kot.
بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful
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| My sister snap this. Yes, thats me :) |
19th May 2012, Saturday. The day I was officially called an Alumni of UiTM Malaysia. Graduated my study in Diploma of Office Management and Technology. The nervous hits me when my turn is getting nearer on that day.
My aunt tricked me saying her with the cousins couldn't come. I don't mind eventho I really hoped that they'll come. Wanting to do a suprise I guess. My sister spoiled it saying they were on their way. Haha. I was like.... -.-''
Them, while waiting for me.
My 4th brother was not able to come as he'll be facing his SPM exam soon. My parents tried but the management of the school went nuts I guess. VERY BAD.
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| My strength. My family ♥ |
I may lack in many ways but deep in my heart I cherish my family, our family and wanting to protect the family for the rest of my life. Thank you for your patience and bear with my attitude when I'm at my worst. Thank you for.. be there for me. I may not be good in expressing my feelings, my thoughts but enough to know my heart, my life i dedicate em all to you, family. Syukur Ya Allah for giving me the chance to be apart of this family.
The cousins, thank you much kesayangan ! Please know that I love you guys so much !
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| Thanks yayan dena datang. Happy tau ! Pandai dena awak tak gitau ite. Kihkih. |
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| Thank you love for the flowers. I love it. ♥ |
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| My aunt, Acik ♥ She beautiful :) Oh thats her daughter, Nuha :) |
Acik, no words can describe on how grateful I am to be one of your nieces. You are a great aunt. I am thankful. Thank you so much Acik. You've done a lot. You gave a lot. May Allah bless your family and showers you with HIS blessings always. Ameen. I love you so much acik. I do.
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| Thank you Allah for this. Thank you for lending them to me in this world to love me and to be there with me. |
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| Parents ♥ |
Tiada kata yang dapat diungkap
Apatah lagi dari mulut yang tidak terucap
Begitu banyak jasa, bakti, wang dan peluh keringat
Membesarkan, mendidik dan menjaga tidak kira penat
Tidak termasuk dengan perangai ini yang ligat
Selalu sahaja minta telinga untuk dipiat-piat
Aku sedar banyak salahku kepada kedua kamu
Aku tidak mengerti akan kepayahan kedua kamu
Aku cuba untuk memahami betapa istimewanya kedua kamu
Maafkan aku umi ayahku
Terlalu banyak dosaku padamu
Terima kasih atas segalanya
Ku mohon doa supaya Allah membalas semua
Diberkati dirahmati
Hanya itu yang aku mampu kini
Terima kasih umi ayah.
hasil nukilan : anakmu, Aliah Athirah Mazli
(Rabu 16 Mei 2012, 11:15 pagi)
p/s: Ini cuma ilmu dunia. Tidak terhenti sekadar di sini. Ilmu dunia ada peringkatnya tapi kejarlah ilmu Allah yang meluas serata alam yang tidak terhingga. InsyaAllah.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
28 APRIL 2012 ITU
بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful
Cucu pertama dalam keluarga Hj Othman dan Hjh Zalmah.
Cucu pertama juga yang kini sudah membina keluarga yang mawaddah.
Cucu pertama yang mengajarku tentang indahnya percintaan selepas bernikah.
Cucu pertama yang menjadi contoh terbaik buat adik adik sepupu yang mana aku percaya mengikut langkah.
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| The mosque |
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| I wonder what was Yayan thinking at that time? :D |
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| While waiting for the bride and her family |
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| I love this personally. The first grandson with the grandfather. Who can believe he is already married now. |
I remember playing with him and with other cousins when we were little. It was a fun memories back then. He is a great brother and a very good example to us the cousins.
Rasa sebak pada hari itu. Cucu pertama dalam keluarga kini sudah menjadi suami kepada wanita yang dicintai.
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| My brother , the tall one with wawan (the cousin), photographer tidak rasmi yang setia mengambil gambar. hehe. OH, semua gambar di sini adalah hasil adik saya. |
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| Dengan sekali lafaz sahaja. Alhamdulillah. Oh, perasan tak anak panah merah tu? That's me. Punya nervous sampai berdiri :D |
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| Mohd. Soffian Ariff dan Nur Dianah Kamarul Bahrin. Selamat Pengantin Baru :) |
Dena,
You are originally a family. Our family. I am proud of you and I love you. We all love you :) Welcome to the family love <3
Yayan,
You will always be our beloved abang sepupu yang sentiasa shows good examples pada adik adik sepupu. I am proud of you both. And yes we all love you yayan :)
Semoga berbahagia di bawah lindungan rahmatNya senantiasa. InsyaAllah.
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