Wednesday, March 13, 2019

3 THINGS THAT I GAINED FROM AN USRAH SHARING

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

by AliahMazli

I have always loved to go to Usrah even not as frequent as I used to. I really love the positive vibes that all of the sisters brought to the ceremony. My spiritual side will eventually got lifted up every time I came back from an Usrah Session. The reason being because they reminded me to my faith--Islam.

The sisters reminded me about Allah and all the good things that eventually I almost forgot. This is exactly what I need the most--being in a Jamaah. These brothers and sisters will always give fruitful reminders about Islam, about our faith and pulling myself back to center when I seem so lost about this world.

There were times where I almost drowned in my own negativity and these sisters will pull me out and gave a "CPR" rescue so that I can get back on track, stand on my feet and find my way back to The Almighty. 

During the Usrah session, one of the sisters asked us a question:

"Why the sahabahs or Rasulullah S.A.W's companions keep on holding on strong to Islam wholeheartedly back then?"

I did have the answers but I asked myself, do I? It's like a slap on my face where I felt ashamed of myself that night.

These are among the reasons why the sahabahs really hold on strong to Islam despite all the backlashes, humility, tortures that they received.

  • They have strong belief and trust to Allah S.W.T. They know all along that Allah will never leave them and with that, they leave all to Allah as HE will take care of the rest. The sahabahs felt rest assured with Allah as their sole reason to live.

Thinking back about this, I felt so distant. I always/sometimes doubt what will happen either Allah will help me or not. Astaghfirullah. This clearly shows that I have not fully trust Allah's plan. I always doubt on things. It also shows how much I really know my Lord. Subhanallah. I want to be as devoted as the sahabahs. I want to love Allah as much as the sahabahs. I want to know more about Allah as much as the sahabahs. I do.

  • They have the purest love towards Rasulullah S.A.W. They want to meet Rasulullah S.A.W. again in Jannah and they withstand by all means to keep Islam as sacred as possible and protect it with their lives. Because they know, their lover which is Rasulullah is waiting for them.

I ponder to myself this note and asked myself, how much do you love Rasulullah S.A.W, Aliah Athirah? You can ask yourself this too.

  • They know their responsibility towards Islam. Their job in this world is to spread the beauty of Islam. To let people know about Allah, to know who is the Creator of this world and who is our true Master. No matter what happened, they stood by Islam by hook or by crook.

Me? What have I done so far in this world? What have I done for Islam? Every time the sister pin-pointed the reasons of the question, I asked myself a question and pondered hard on all the points. Many questions lingered in my mind and I could not really find the answers to that.

  • They hold on strongly to Al-Quran as they really learned, understood and practiced all the teachings in the Quran. Quran is the last Mushaf that was blessed to our beloved Prophet Rasulullah S.A.W and to all of us. Hence, they hold on dearly to the Quran and always refer to it for any questions at any time.

I still feel that I am far from making it my best friend as there were times I skipped my Quran readings. The consistency is not there and I noticed that is my weakness--consistency. I can see that I need to overhaul myself to get myself back to the deen, to my Creator.

  • Allah's promises and happy stories of the Paradise that made them overjoyed with smile and strengthen their faith to protect it by all means.

Knowing the last point really left me speechless. I knew by then that I have not been reading the Quran a lot, tadabbur the Quran or read any books that really tells about all the beautiful things about the Paradise. If I know about all the good things, the happy things that I can devour in the Paradise, I will surely do my best to live in this world, isnt it? 

The final destination of all be it either the Paradise or the Hell. You and I must be wanting to be in  the Paradise right? I would not even dare to read the word or hear it, not even wanting to take a step inside it, Nauzubillah!

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Apart from the question asked, there were 3 main things that I remembered the most during the Usrah Session. We were talking about Yaumul Qiamah as well that night.

Your heart must be cleansed, purified every single day.
This also includes to forgive everyone every time before we go to sleep. To leave all to Allah be it good or bad even when the heartaches are too painful to bear--forgive everyone. It is easier said than done but that's what we have to do. I found this hard to practice but as I slowly trying to make it as a routine, I somehow felt a small burden being lifted up from my shoulders and the most importantly--my heart.

You have to always think good about anything that happened in your life.
It may be good and it may be bad (to you), but to Allah, it is a sign that HE loves you more than you ever think of.

Say a lot of Istighfar and Selawat to Rasulullah S.A.W.
When you realize that your mouth is not saying anything and rather than letting it closes like that, say istighfar or selawat till you mouth feels dry. Take a sip of water and continue to do it. I've always wanted to die while saying these dhikir you know. How beautiful it will be. Thinking back on this, I have wasted so many of my years not doing any dhikir and all. When I slowly try doing this one, I noticed that I somehow refusing myself to talk on nonsense things that wont give me benefits. Of course, this comes with a lot of practice.

I hope that you and I can ponder and take a moment to muhasabah on ourselves, reflect back on our lives and I do hope we can find a way to make our lives more meaningful each day with the intention of solely living out lives because of Allah Taala.

Please make duaa for me too.

InshaaAllah, see you on my next post!

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